Hi, Friends, how is your weekend? I came across a lovely couple enjoying sunshine on lawn at an event. The couple happily allowed me to sketch them. Ah, I felt joy, happiness and peace on the earth.
This week topic, "identity" might be a bit heavy. But "seeking who I am" has motivated me to become an artist.
In my eyes, each person is a universe. If so, that's a lot of job to find "who I am."
When I was at high school, I read a very interesting joke.
A lady died and met St Peter at a heaven's gate. St Peter asked her a question, "Who are you?"
The lady answered, "I was Sadami."
St Peter said, "No, I don't ask your name. Who are you?" The lady answered, "I was a wife of such-a-such." "No, I don't ask whose wife you were. Who are you?" The lady answered, "I was a teacher." "No, I don't ask your occupation. Who are you?"Although St Peter kept on asking, the lady failed to answer for that question and found herself come back to life.
Then, she determined to find the answer in the rest of her life. The lady could lead a wonderful and active life....
Oh...youngish Sadami felt a profound truth and decided to find who I am like that lady. I tried to find it in work, study and books.
Some people seek answers an outside. Others try to find answers in an inner world. Methods is not a matter, but an answer should be unique and individual. Once, an answer was found, a very simple life is preferable, which focuses on who I am. (*Of course, our real life is not simple. Rather, reality is sticky and complicated.)My answer for myself is watercolour painting--- portrait and picture book illustration. Each of my paintings is a part of Sadami. Each work answers for "who I am."
Paradox, that answer has Alpha and Omega, but open ended. It responds to any context. A person who finds identity will not be easily stumbled in any circumstance. The answer grows and leads to another challenge. So, no surprise when an artist changes a style. Changing reveals an artist's quest for identity and a progress. (I hope my poor writing makes sense.) A person confidently begins to live on her own life and joins society.
I'm now exploring my watercolour painting techniques and a style. I seem to have faced a wall. Honest, Friends, I sometimes, feel painting is difficult. When my expected results do not come up, I feel I get stuck. But I want to go beyond.
Through blogging, I could meet many same minded people, wonderful friends and artists. Most of them are making inner journeys to seek identity or struggle for an individual goal. Each of us is traveling a stormy sea called art in a different boat.
BUT......how nice it is, encouraging one another in wild winds! How warm, if we could leave a bit say at another boat in a stormy sea at cold night! So, I'd really appreciate your comments and happily visit friends' blogs.
Let us enjoy our journeys.
Thank you for reading. Take care.