Friends, Bloom Out Fully!

Friends, each seed will become a different flower that has beauty. To live/become genuine, real oneself is the answer to live fully.
Now, we're getting into spring. Many flowers are blooming out here in Sydney. I felt like sketching them!

In this sketch,  I really enjoyed colours. Playing with colours thrilled me! Yey! 

This work could be my breakthrough of still life.

Even though I hardly made still life, my favorite old work was "acorns" below,  You'll find my style was more traditional, not liquid like above.

In the "acorns," I have a good memory and deep thoughts -- a psychologist, "Karen Horney." In Horney's approach, what attracted me most is "the human individuals, given a chance, tends to develop his particular human potentialities," like an acorn grows to an oak tree.

Horney asserts that each person, becoming a real self, has the inherent capacity to improve an individual life and become a self-realized / activated person. Free from anxiety, unique, warm, spontaneous, full of joy, simple life and unafraid.

What a beautiful expression and impressive metaphor!! I felt. A tiny acorn, but it merrily grows to a huge tree that can even rest others in her cool shade. Wow... but how could I be a real self?

I kept searching for my direction at uni whistle reading, chatting with lecturers and friends. Also, the sudden disability happened on me. When I attended the children picture book illustration course, lecturers(*famous professional illustrators) recognized my talent at once. A psychology lecturer encouraged me to be "what I am" fully.

I felt, "I don't want to live fake / pseudo myself. I want to live genuine, real Sadami." I've loved drawing since childhood. For me, drawing and painting is life. It's "me" -- I've found it! Finally, I determined to become a professional artist after uni, the lecturers celebrated my decision so much. For my departure and our good bye, the psychology lecturer suggested me read "The Gift of Therapy" by Irvin Yalom. What coincidence! I found Karen Horney in the Chapter 1, "Remove Obstacles to Growth". I really appreciated our lecturer's kindness.

Today, my life focuses on art activities. Very simple and joyful despite the disability etc.  And Friends, believe it? My watercolour painting style has begun to dramatically change since I started living "true myself". Yes, my brush cannot help but dance on papers from joy! Lively, liquid, colourful, spontaneous, free, cheerful etc, just like Horney claims. The other day, another friend says, "You're blooming out now!" Yes, indeed.

So, Friends, bloom out fully as you are. Each one's answer is different and only you can find it. Once, you really find who you are, sure, your talent will come out. You do not need to be someone else, but be what you are. You're unique and precious, as I said before.
I hope my poor writing will make sense for you and you will take a rest in this post.  I sketched this oak tree yesterday.
Friends, Happy Painting!!

Bibliography  

Boeree, C. G. (1997). Karen Horney: 1885-1952. Personality theories. Internet. 4 Sept. 2001. http://www.ship.edu/~cgboeree/horney.html.

Horney, K. (1991) "Neurosis and Human Growth," New York, Norton Company.

Yalom, I. (2001) "The Gift of Therapy," UK, Piatkus. 

Friends, Bloom Out Fully!