Self Acceptance

Hi, Friends, did you enjoy a weekend?
Blog friends ask me, "How could you be always so positive?" To answer that question, I'll chat over "self-acceptance." "Unconditional self-acceptance" is the most precious insight I've learnt from psychology at uni. In short, with self-acceptance, I've become a happy and positive person! Today, it helps me accept myself and others in daily life.

Self acceptance is not easy, if a person does not understand who s/he is well. I come across so many people blaming on themselves too much or demanding themselves too much. Consider this question; do you want to "draw like Michelangelo"? Sure, all of us say, "No." But in fact, we tend to demand ourselves too much at a varied level in daily life. It hurts an individual deeply and ruins  self-esteem.

Art work is, indeed, a person's inner world and a relation with an outside world. It's a tragedy that a person struggles to paint like a famous artist and flawless. It's really sad that a person never gets satisfied with what s/he has created (actually not bad, nice!). A person repeatedly boasts old stories and lives in the past. S/he always curses at her/himself and consequently gets depressed. But a person tends to be blind to her/himself or hardly has an objective view. In other words, people harm themselves endlessly.

It's very a pain for a third party to see self harming people. As if bleeding people were hitting their heads against a huge same wall again and again, criticizing themselves dreadfully. Or people rigidly demand themselves more than they do/can. Or people do not appreciate what they do/can. Or people have a fear of a third party or an outside world or themselves. Or contradictorily, people have huge pride although they lack genuine confidence etc, etc. Too judgemental. Irrational thoughts depress people. Self acceptance can change those attitudes above, I've learnt.

The point of self-acceptance is to know who we are, become what we are fully. It requires honesty and courage to face our reality. But, if we only prefer what we want/desire in ourselves, it's not "unconditional." "Unconditional" is critically important -- whatever we did/do or despite the facts, if we love ourselves, it maximises our abilities. Then, we will bloom out what we have fully.  Let us chuck perfectionism into a bin! We, only human. Why not make mistakes? In my view, forgiveness is nearly equal self acceptance ; healthy self-love enables us to love others properly. That is the ultimate beauty of human behaviour, isn't it? I "joyfully" make mistakes and enjoy them all and learn a lot! (Does it make sense? I hope my sloppy English will make sense.)  

I hope I will create "Sadami's" picture books, not like any other illustrators's styles. Good news! I finished up the education picture book with Australian Council. The top and a team's feedback is "Excellent!" Happy surprise! Australian Council has kindly organised a courier to pick up my work this week. Yey!!
The trade picture book project is right on a track. I'll just do my best. 
Friends, please, never, ever hurt yourself. You're precious and beautiful, because you're you! Let's enjoy our lives fully and have fun in drawing.
Happy Painting!!    
(*The sketch above was a guest speaker at a church meeting. A psychologist and community worker for women's mental health. The speaker kindly gave me her favorite say, "Change thoughts(=attitude). Change Your World!" spot on!)


 

Self Acceptance

Life Drawing & Robin Norling Contact!

Hi, Friends, how was your weekend? I had a wonderful time. But I've been busy with the two picture book projects. The education project has a due date in this week. I'm at the last page! Nearly there. The projects require my energy and time. 
So, life drawing refreshes me every Monday evening. Here we go!  All work, A2.

BTW,  Friends! Oh, my! Blogging brings unexpected happy encounter!  Robin Norling, a very famous artist and well-respected lecturer contacted me!!! His very close friend, working with Robin for years at NSW Art Gallery found my blog post on Robin's teaching about life drawing. Robin and his friend courteously sent me a special thank you letter with his book for art students. They say my blog post has "touched Robin." Their contact encourages me so much. Oh, I'm so happy(never expected his contact)! Also, happy to tell them my achievements as an artist.  I much owe my success to his kindness and teaching at NSW Gallwery 16 yrs ago. The teaching is in me. Below, 20 minutes.

Back to the topic, life drawing. What motivates you for life drawing?  The beauty of human bodies is awesome. It motivates me to draw it. I always feel something in a model. Even in the same model, my interests are different such as movement, face expression, colour, proportion, posture etc, etc. Below, I played with colours and strong lines. 15 minutes.

I do not know how to say my feelings in language. It's much like "instinct." I just respond to something I feel. My picture book illustration mentor says, "Your first language is drawing, visual person!"  Hahaha, so true. Each model's face expression quite interests me. Ah, life drawing always reminds me that I am a portraitist, too. Done in 20 minutes.

How do you start up life drawing? My life drawing process is much like sports. I start playing with lines by a graphite for warm up. When "something" in a model excites me and I cannot stop my joy, I'll pick up watercolour brushes(= until I feel something, I do not start). I forget everything and just have fun on paper.

But mannerism should be eschewed.  This week, I'd challenge a "direct watercolour painting and drawing later" methods again.  I still can remember Robin showed us to try different methods of drawings. It taught me the importance of flexibility and exploring of  creativity. Also,  blogging brings wonderful encounters on the earth. Let's enjoy this communication methods that enriches us. 
Friends, Happy Painting!!

Life Drawing & Robin Norling Contact!

Nurture vs Nature

Hi, Friends, how is your weekend?
This week, I'll chat over talents vs efforts in how I've learned human figure drawing. Often people ask me Qs while sketching people. The typical two questions respresent nature vs nurture. 
"Wow, you're talented," 
"How/where did you learn it? "

According to Oxford Dictionary, "talent" is "natural aptitude or skill." 
In the analysis, the semantic definition is quite vague, because something being "natural" or (a person is) born with a specific skill is, again, ambiguous. Can any kid draw well? Could anyone compose 9 symphonies or paint Sistine chapel from the beginning of life? My drawings in young days had nothing outstanding.

Only the difference from other kids was I loved drawing! No less than others! Today, some parents show me thier children's paintings that they believe talented. I really do not know which work is good or not. Parents urge me for suggestion. I reply, "Does your child like drawing? If so, encourage him/her to keep up." My answer often dissapoints the parents who expects so high. (I always feel sorry for children silently standing beside their parents.)  

Also, people often ask me to teach how to draw a human. No magic, but practice. “Every artist was first an amateur,” said Ralph Waldo Emerson and true. My adivce is, "Sketch people for 3 or 5 minutes every day. Just only ONE drawing is enough. But keep up." Sadly, none of advice seekers has come back to me with a sucessful story, so far. I've been drawing people for years. Not wise to expect too much so soon. 

As far as I know, all the big names have made manmous efforts behind their masterpieces. Perseverance and endurance are great assets that I call talents. In my view, the people, who have been "diligent" and "never given up," become wonderful artists. A talent, the dictionary definition above, is not the necessary element to be an artist, in my view.

The graffiti for those years have clarified my direction to go, "figures and illustrations." Later, when I started watercolour, I began to  "loosen up" my realistic approach. I'm still learning lots and your blogs are great teachers and .... to the present! 
So, I'm nothing different from others, but long years drawing.

Nurture seems to be more important than a vague talent. Also,  enthusiasm for drawing is vital! Joy must come first. Otherwise, we cannot keep it up. Yet, some opinions might support talent. So, lastly, I'd devote this say for you and myself,
"When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me.'" --- Erma Bombeck

Friends, let us use what we have up to the maximum! The picture book projects are going well. Very happily busy!
Happy Painting and Happy Drawing!! 

Nurture vs Nature

Be Positive in Illo Work

Hi, Friends, how have you been? 
I enjoyed the weekend and come back to the picture book projects : an education picture book and a trade picture book. Both are going well. I've been enjoying lots of Black & White roughs and Colour roughs. Technically, many "washes" will come up in the trade picture book that bridges reality and unreality. The education one is factual.  

BTW, I'd chat over our job, picture book illustration in physical and mental aspects. Once, I wrote about the picture book illustration process in the post.
Illustration is like "falling in love" with a "manuscript." You love it at a first sight. You can't hold your emotions and respond to the text! --- is essential or preferable.  

However, it's a hard task to keep an illustrator's emotions fresh and high. Picture book illustration often takes a "year" (or years) to finish up 32 pages (*an average page number for one trade picture book). Please imagine, a person must be excited nearly everyday for a year. Friends, we all know, not easy to keep falling in love with the same person for 24 hrs for 365 days. Furthermore, submitted illustrations could come back for try-it-again. 

Physically and mentally, very demanding job. Technically, very sophisticated. We work very hard and try experiments lots at the stage of roughs and a story board -- I'm just there! Readers only know a tiny bit of an illustrator's huge efforts like an ice berg.

Sometimes, our job is undervalued.  
Recently, when I was invited to a public library's event, a lady approached to me arrogantly. "I've heard you're an illustrator. I have wonderful texts(=I'll give you a chance). Work together. " Patient Sadami courteously and proudly answered, "Rule of thumb, we'll never work for freebie. Quite expensive. Please check ASA rate, our minimum wages. I'm a picture book illustrator." My say disappointed her badly. She said in disdain, "Picture book? (with a full contempt) I don't work with a kid's picture book illustrator. I'll tell you, my daughter, talented daughter, 8 yrs old already writes a chapter book....blablabla."  Very patient Sadami gave her the info on Australian Society of Authors and suggested, "Please consult ASA about your daughter's case," and got back to dear librarians.    

Friends, I love this job, illustration, although very demanding. You know my daily sketches that allow me to create picture books. Quite tough job, but, --according to another big name's say, -- "You'll get addicted to this job!" Yes, indeed. Also, I'd like to believe that many people appreciate our work, picture books. Actually, this blogging and blog friends back me up so much. Thank you! 

Friends, chin up, if you're in a tough time. You're not alone! I'd send you my biiig hugs!

Keep up and Happy Painting!!

Be Positive in Illo Work

World Book & Copyright Day

Hi, Friends, did you have a wonderful weekend?
Now, 23 April is the World Book & Copyright Day set by UNESCO.
I'll chat over pros and cons of E children picture books.

E books, in general, have many advantages -- more compact, light weight, economic than printed books and accessable at anywhere and from all over the world. However, in disadvantages, E books lack human interactions and without computers or pads, people cannot access E books.

Regarding children's picture books, I love printed books more. Probably, the most beauty of print books is sweet human interactions between children and readers(= care givers). We stay together and enjoy books. Great joys are touching pictures in pages, smelling a book etc, etc, sensing a books on a parent's lap. Not only touching a book, also we feel, touch our bodies, warmths and love, hearing voices! Talking of human relation, printed picture books often become gifts of love between family and relative members. Of course, human interactions could be possible by E books. But in an art phase, a small screen is equivocal to appreciate pictures. Another concern is appropriate page turning timing. When we, illustrators create a book, book design always accounts page turning with the real sounds of text reading out. It's uncertain that E books's page turning displays what an illustrator means to show in an information flow. Or, I should say, can young readers fully enjoy page turning in E books?  

But today, society is moving toward digitisation more and more. E books beat hard cover books in many points. Take a public library for an example. A same budget takes more E books than print ones. E books save space on shelves. Moreover, any procedures over a counter are not necessary. A trip to a library does not bother users any more. Overdued E books are simply access denied by libraries. Also, fonts are easily enlarged, which is helpful for readers who need help. So, E books save time, money and space, and very accessible for users such as people with disabilities and in countrysides.

Besides the E books's strengths, in reality, babies are born with computers and mobile phones. Kids are growing up with computers whilst playing around with them. I wonder only me have sentiments for old printed books, particularly, for children picture books...? They might become fossils in a museum ...and, gulp, for school excursion in the future...? Sigh.

What do you think, Friends? Let me hear your throughs. Anyway, a book is a little universe, and probably, one of our most precious inventions on the earth.  

BTW, I'm very busy with the education picture book project in a tight schedule, while I'm having a fun in colour roughs for the trade picture book. Editors and famous illustrators encourage me very much.
Friends, thanks for cheers and pardon me, if I should not upload a blog post regularly.  
Anyway, Friends, Happy Painting!!

World Book & Copyright Day

Research for Picture Book Illo

Hi, Friends, how have you been? Picture book projects occupy me. But what a surprise! An old uni friend visited my place whilst her temporary staying in Sydney. Today, the friend is a linguist doing research in a field work. Her team is making a picture dictionary for the researched language. Validity and reliability of visual information is crucial for both picture book illustration and academic use.

Regarding research, creating a children's picture book is nothing different from the linguistic work mentioned above. Based on a deep text analysis, data collection starts for pictures. Gathered data will be categorised and critically analysed for use. I know many famous illustrators did/do research for YEARs to create a picture book. 

Think of this ;  if an illustrated picture should give inappropriate information such as too much generalised or stereotyped one. Yes, it's important to be aware of responsibilities of pictures. Thus, research for pictures is necessary and essential.  

So, Friends, your research skills and academic background are great strengths to approach publishers and to work on projects.
My linguistics and sociology study definitely helps my illustration work. I've won Editors's trust in me. I always submit a text analysis for Editor/Publisher like an academic research essay. Then, Editor and I will discuss about a project and pictures more and profoundly. 

This post might sound hard, but good children picture book illustrators are all good researchers with good writing skills -- is so true and not well known. In clear writing, Illustrator logically convinces Editor of her text analysis and greatly enjoys discussions over a text. 

Back to the light topic, my dear linguist friend. Unexpectedly, my experiences as a picture book illustrator helped her! An illustrator pointed out a linguist's blind spot. The linguist would contact the team. Very happy! I heartily hope their project, too, will go well. After a long chat, the friend and I went to a beach for swimming. In turn, she helped me revise roughs for the education picture book project. With her help, I could reorganise roughs in a few days before a due date, this Monday. Yey!  
In addition, "Friends Make Our Life a Party!"  -- is also true!! Hahaha!

Friends, Happy Painting!

Research for Picture Book Illo

Sydney International Chess Tournament

Hi, Friends, did you enjoy a weekend? 

The education picture book project is going wellʚ(ˆ◡ˆ)ɞ.

Now, I enjoyed sketching "Sydney International Open Chess Tournament" held from 10-15 April in Parramatta Town Hall. The sketches were done by the courtesy of Mr Shane Burgess, vice president of NSW Chess Association. 66 players had battled everyday from morning to evening for prizes. 
Friends, shhhh, later, I'll tell you how to beat an opponent with "tricks."ʚ(ˆ◡ˆ)ɞ

My first impression. A player's concentration was astonishing. Crashing an opponent is an ultimate goal in a tournament. Huge pressures are on players. In high tension, each player's body language told me very well about what was going on and who was a winner or a loser. I was quite empathic for a loser. 

But a player told me, "No! Body language does not always match a player's thinking. Chess is much like a poker." Then, the giggling female player whispered me two tricks.

Trick1 : Pretending! A player pretends perfectly ok at a bad movement and puts pressures on an opponent. Or a reverse, "smokescreen," a player pretends as if he has made a great mistake, in fact, a very clever movement. Or another player always keeps "smiling" in any context.
Oh, I see! Chess certainly is a psychological game!

Trick 2 : Maximize What You Have?!
Another trick I heard was, a woman's "sexuality show-off," = put on a very pretty and low cut shirt to show your "milk-tanks." It distracts a male player. Male players told me, "And they (=women) lean forward, while they are struggling. Once, they feel they can win, then, they will not show it any more!"  Players and I chuckled together!
Friends, if you play chess with a male friend next time, go for it. You may beat him, "Checkmate, daarrrling"?! ʚ(ˆ◡ˆ)ɞ Or, gentlemen, when you play chess with women, look at a flat chess board, not at "two mountains." Otherwise, you'll be led into a death valley.  

By the way, chess players and visual artists have similarities in socio-economic aspects. Financially, chess hardly supports a player. Many chess players have day jobs or teaching others chess for income. Also, a social status is low for chess players as well as artists. It is a great shame neither chess players nor visual artists are respected well. An artist once said to me, "Think this -- society without art! Where's happiness and joy? We, visual artists have to do strike!" I'd say the same is true of chess players in society. 

Ultimately, chess is interactions between two people. After the game, both sides shook hands and smiled at each other, which touched me, too. Wonderful! Players know very well each other. The tournament is a "chess lovers community" and "socialisation." It was so lovely to make friends with chess players, who respect a visual artist.
Finally, I'd say special thanks for Mr Burgess and his staff or backstage players who organised the event. You're great!!

Friends, Happy Painting!!

Sydney International Chess Tournament